I've been performing for as long as I can remember.
As a kid, I always loved to sing. Then,when I was 6 years old, I told my Mum that I wanted to be a movie star. So, she sent me to drama lessons. She still tells the story of the car ride home, when for the first time in my life, for 20 whole minutes, I was silent. We both knew then that something amazing had happened in that studio. I continued with my lessons and loved it. I performed in eisteddfods and did well, placing many times. Then I started writing poetry, and it was in the performance poetry section that I won my first gold.
Poetry and performing would remain themes in my life as I began high school. My parents divorced and we moved out to the Lockyer Valley. Naturally I loved Music, English and Drama, and while my dreams of stardom had faded as I started exploring what it would mean to study Medicine, my love of writing and singing stayed.
Then, when I was 16, I received a bursary from the Empire Theatre and found myself at NIDA in Sydney for the Summer Program. Meanwhile, my brother was learning to play guitar and Mum had bought a drum kit, so we formed a family band and recorded an album in our living room.
We never gigged live, but then I saw a poster advertising for a vocalist on the local noticeboard, and I joined my first band as a working musician. We played in venues around Brisbane. Ric's Bar, The Verve Cafe, those kinds of places. I finished school, and took 6 months off, in the midst of which I agreed to MC the local youth festival. I had no idea what I was doing, but it felt good and the feedback was great.
Meanwhile i'd started working casually as a promotional model, and in a grand happening of 'right place, right time' I ended up taking over the agency.
By the time I moved to Brisbane when I was 17, I'd also picked up a job working for a Children's Charity, firstly in admin and later as an Event Manager. As the agency grew and I gained experience with directing photoshoots and coaching models in front of the camera, I found another passion. Helping people find their freedom. Watching the girls under my care go from being stiff and scared to relaxed and joyful in front of the camera was so, so rewarding.
In the midst of all of this, my plans to pursue a career in health took an unexpected turn. I'd imagined myself in Western Medicine, never considering another alternative. Until I received a Reiki session from a family friend and became obsessed with understanding what I had experienced.
I travelled to Melbourne to study Energy Medicine and returned with fresh enthusiasm about the potential of this incredible modality. Meanwhile, I was on a journey of self-realization. Unpacking those things that were holding me back. Freeing myself from childhood patterns and trauma and learning to manage the anxiety that had always been a big part of my life.
I started an Arts Degree at the University of Queensland, and followed my nose. I found myself studying Anthropology and Religion. Rites of Passage. Ritual. Trance and Shamanism. My curiosity deepened, as common themes emerged across hundreds of cultures. I also found myself exploring the concept of the neo-shaman. A DJ or performer who guides their audience on a deep inward journey. In a modern world desperately lacking in ritual and a sense of the sacred, these experiences taking place in concert halls and on dancefloors intrigued me.
My experiences as an audience member and also as a performer had me curious about the potential of this work. Then, business started to pickup. So I deferred my degree and over time my focus shifted. In the background however, there was always a niggling, that there was more to be explored here.
What followed were 3 fantastic years of learning and growth. I focused on my work, and in my spare time I loved sharing Energy Medicine with my friends. Honing my skills and exploring the potential of the work. Then, life threw one its curveballs, and at the start of 2013 I met my soulmate. Soon after I was pregnant.
Once my son was born, I realised I had a choice. As much as I loved Energy Medicine as a hobby, it was time to choose a path. Leave healing behind for a while, or make it my profession.
When my son Auren was 6 months old, I left my job at the children's charity and went into Private Practice as an Energy Medicine Practitioner. Through working with clients, as well as on myself, I started developing more and more techniques exercises focused specifically around Authentic Self Expression and healing the Feminine Self.
I ran some workshops and an online program. We had our second child, my daughter Alena, and I continued following the breadcrumbs and listening to the subtle messages that life was sending my way.
Then in a giant leap of faith, we packed up our comfy home in the Gold Coast Hinterland and moved into a caravan on our family property in the Helidon Hills, just east of Toowoomba - so that we could create the space I needed to take my practice to the next level.
What I WASN'T expecting, was the life-changing inspiration that struck me like a lightning bolt.
It was completely exhilarating. Like the final puzzle piece had fallen into place. All of a sudden, everything I had EVER done, made total sense. Everything had been leading me up to this point. All of a sudden, I knew why I was here.
I'd left the creative arts behind, but then suddenly I realised, it didn't have to be that way. I realised that EVERYTHING i'd been developing. Around liberating the emotional body, activating the Core Channel and claiming deep presence and true power. It all carried over PERFECTLY to activating incredible stage presence. To cultivating audience connection. To accessing the emotions, without becoming overwhelmed by them. To finding true, authentic confidence on stage.
From then until now? Has been a blur. It was like all of a sudden, the dams opened and the river of life has carried me to where I sit now, writing this today. What comes next? Who knows? All I know for sure is that this is why I am here. I know beyond all doubt now, that performance is in my blood and medicine in my bones...
...and where those two things meet? I have found my calling.
With Love, now and always,